when the battle music starts to play but you cant see the enemy
So i havent been wearing my bracelets for these past two days meaning my scars were bare. Nobody has noticed, that I know of. But i think my dad noticed today! Omg no. He CANT notice. This will be a disaster if he noticed. He’s being really quiet now, i really hope he didnt see the scars.
I barely have friends. I have no job, soley for the fact that I dont need one. Im financially set. But… im bored. After im done with school work there is nothing to do. Im always home doing nothing. I want to go out and have fun. But i barely have friends, and the ones I do have are always working or at school, or just broke to the point they cant do anything.
What can I do? where can I go?
I’m a 20 year old female not living her life. To think I should be going to parties and the beach and having fun with friends. Instead, im just a anti-social insecure loser stuck at home with no life.
And you wanna know how I did it?
I ate strictly about 1400-1600 calories a day and exercised an hour everyday (i normally burn between 300-500 calories in my exercises). I was strict with my portion sizes and measured EVERYTHING. I wasnt snacking 24/7 and ate really healthy. Lots of fruit, chicken, greek yogurt, egg whites. I drink 1 coke zero a day to satsify my sugar cravings and keep me a little full. Yesterday I binged on 5 hershey kisses and a luna bar but was still in my caloric intake. I have been drinking about almost 1 gallon of water a day.
I’m not gonna lie. Yes, I do go hungry. And I have a lot of hunger headaches. But this is the price. I wish I could eat a lot more and indulge, but I have to be strict, and this is what dieting is pretty much all about really. If you indulge, indulge only a little and know you have to take those calories into consideration.
Im so happy, even my stomach looked flatter this morning :3