I am a disgusting fat fuck, and always will be. I’ve gained so much weight. I’m so embarrassed and ashamed. My gym trainer knows, my nutritionist knows….everybody in the gym knows. My clothes are tight and my stomach looks so fucking huge. I look absolutely disgusting. I am disgusting.
I keep eating bad foods. I am so stupid.
I want to tear my skin apart.
I might just do that today. I dont care how I will hide them at the gym or at home, I’ll find a way.
I wish I had my medication. I’ll be getting more on Monday hopefully. Ugh.
I hate myself so much.